I can’t breathe. My heart is breaking. I made a huge mistake. My life is over. No joy, no will to live!!!
The curse of being an over Thinker. Stupidly thinking & convincing myself of things I know aren’t real. Things I know are stupid. Reacting unnecessarily to something that is only in my Stupid,Stupid mind!! Knowing it’s only in my mind but still doing stupid things. Things that I hate myself for doing, things that don’t make me feel good at all. Not realizing how he would hurt, not realizing how much he really loves me.
Hating myself!! No longer wanting to go on. Destroying the only good thing in my life!! Destroying the only thing worth living for!!!
I feel like a waste, not worth anything. How can I be when I destroy the BEST thing of my life?? The sweetest, most incredible man.
I’ve lost everything!!! My heart & soul. Stupid, Stupid over thinking!!!
I HATE YOU!!!!!! YOU ARE A DESPICABLE HUMAN BEING!!!!!!