A deep yearning for what was…
Screaming echoes for things unknown…
In the void of past present and future
Echoes of voices,screams,laughter and wonder
Is what is to be a wonderous journey of the unseen,the unexplained and mysterious?
Tag: searching
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Like a volcano intense emotions filling her soul,burning every ounce of peace and hapiness
Like a waterfall tears streaming down her cheeks
Like a tornado thoughts causing chaos and destruction
Like a clown smiling and laughing but,intense heartache inside for no-one to see
Like a deep dark well filled with wishes and dreams her soul holds on
Like a bird in flight,so free and miraculous,holding on to the time all thoughts,betrayal,heartache and tears will disappear to join the freedom and peace of a bird in flight.
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Who would have though I’d suffer from PTSD?
The years of abuse, lies and manipulation has officially taken it’s toll!
Yes, the experiences are over but, my mind keeps reminding me of them, shooting the pain and thoughts through my heat and soul over and over.
The times of total fear, needing to protect myself is so many ways. The never ending questions and lies. So so much destruction to my soul!!
I Sold things that held the memories in hopes that it would help me move forward, yet the anxiety, fear, hurt and brokenness keeps showing up just when I think it’s finally over and I can go forward.
The intrusive memories, the flashbacks, terrible nightmares. too much to bare, keeping me on a continous loop of anxiety and heartache, questions and tears.
Am I ever going to be able to relax and enjoy life and the people in my life who do truly care? Am I always going to go through this continous loop of brokenness, anxiety, questions and immense heartache?
Will it ever stop????? Screaming, searching for help, for peace for love.
Will it ever stop?? Will the sun ever truly shine and fill my soul with peace and love, knowing with certainty I don’t have to be anxious or protect myself anymore, being able to trust again without a doubt?
My Life,My Thoughts 