Why does he continue to lie and manipulate her?
Continue to do things behind her back,knowing it would hurt her?
Why – when they are supposed to be best friends,lovers,eternal partners?
Doing things he knows is wrong, things he knows will destroy everything and he could loose her,loose it all so he lies and manipulates her.
Not sure how long loving him will be enough.
She married him knowing his flaws,knowing what he does,making her feel that it’s on her as much as on him.
How long will their love be strong enough to endure all this?
She can’t take the lies and manipulation anymore.
She has been willing to go through anything with him,no matter what but,this breaking of trust,this show of disrespect is slowly killing her inside.
Her believing that she would be the last person he would do it to,they promised each other love,respect,honesty and loyalty when they got married but, he has destroyed that.
Why?
She sits alone and cries,feeling like she’s dying.
She no longer has the strength for confrontation and fighting, so she just carries on trying to hold on, her depression eating her up
He doesn’t even notice,doesn’t see how much she’s hurting,how long last she actually had any joy.
Her happiness has been taken over by immense heartache,the one person she thought she could trust has shown her no matter who it is,there is no such thing as trust and honesty.
Sadly people are all about themselves, life has changed so much. Everyone is in it for themselves,as long as they get what they want they don’t think or don’t care what their actions do to others. She truly thought he would be different.
There is no doubt he loves her, then why does he continue to do things behind her back and lie and manipulate her?
He doesn’t see things as she does,she’s emotional he is practical.
He struggles to add emotion to things and situations unless it directly effects him. She feels emotion deeply, holds on to objects that have memories, he doesn’t understand. To him objects are just objects,not understanding the emotional connections she has to certain objects.
She feels emotions extremely deeply, be it her own or others. Wishing she didn’t,wishing she could be hard. Wishing she could find her joy,her fight again.
Missing the person she was years ago – full of energy, enjoyed life, found excitement in life and pure joy in living.
The Life that she wanted,that she dreamed of is gone. Now she just goes through the days as she must. Accepting defeat,sad and alone knowing that she will never have the life she dreamt of,the life she deserves.
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