Mom….

So on the 30th June was the 1st year anniversary of my Mom’s passing. A year later and I still have the boutique that was on her coffin. I just can’t bring myself to get rid of it.

I have been an emotional mess since 30th June and really struggling to pull myself out of it.

It is the worst feeling! I sobbed the whole way to work this morning – realizing that I have no-one to turn to. I need to try deal with my thoughts,emotions and daily living on my own and it’s really killing me inside. Can’t talk to anyone who will just listen,try understand what I’m saying and how I’m feeling.

I miss our calls and daily dinners together. After a year I still want to call her.

I can’t stop the tears today,can’t get rid of this gut wrenching feeling I’ve had since the 28th June, can’t stop this terrible terrible heartache!