Sad realisation…

Talking to people and listening to their heartaches and fears in their relationships you realise you aren’t alone and how disrespectful, selfish and inconsiderate people are.

To sadly come to the realisation that you will Never be the only one for your partner, you will never be enough for your partner to just be happy with you, to stop playing games and carrying on with the opposite sex. You will never be enough for your partner that your partner is always looking for something, somone else. Why? Is it so exciting to be unfaithful, to lie about your relationship status to people and play sexual and emotional games? Killing the self respect your partner has in themselves, killing any confidence they had.

Not leaving your partner because you love them so damn much, just the thought of loosing them and living without them makes you feel like you are dying inside. Knowing that it is wrong to stay in the relationship and knowing that they will never stop. Keeping you hidden from the world. Not ever meeting their so called friends of the opposite sex. Keeping the relationship a secret and only the people who see you often know because that can’t be kept secret for long. Not going out together only doing things that no-one sees you together doing. If you are in public together on the very few occasion not showing any affection at all.

Hurting because you know if your partner could they would keep it secret from absolutely everyone and Never let anyone know. You and the relationship the secret – while they go out meet others, exchange numbers, have fun on social media with the opposite sex, sexting, etc. While you are 100% faithful and giving your all.

They expect you to be faithful and let everyone know that you are in a relationship but, they don’t. You give up all your friends of the opposite sex, don’t befriend anyone from the opposite sex. Definitely don’t do sex chats or exchange numbers, etc.

How can they expect you to be loyal and faithful when they aren’t??

How can they say they truly love you if they continously disrespect you and the relationship? If they continously take chances when they know it will always come out and take the chance of loosing you? You and your relationship can’t be that Important to them. They can’t love you as much they say they do. How can they when they always need others of the opposite sex besides you, no matter what you do or how much you love them.

No matter what it will Never only be you. So so heart breaking, so demeaning. No respect for you and your relationship. How do you continue living and loving as if everything is fine when you are hurting so much inside but, still love your partner more than life and don’t want a life without then??