Anxiety

I get anxiety and panic attacks.

Such a scary experience. When the anxiety hits your mind goes crazy thinking of the past present and future, thinking about the sad and happy memories. All your thoughts re-running over and over on an endless loop.

Looping until you eventually loose sight of the good. The loop keeps you going towards all the things that went wrong and could go wrong, keeps you going forward into a dark, dark pit.

Your heart races, your fingers start tingling, then your arms – slowly going numb, you tongue feeling thick – you can’t talk, your chest so tight – you can’t breathe, your legs numb – not being able to stand.

Help….. help…. help……

You fight the thoughts, work on slowing your breathing – one breathe at a time, close your eyes and stop your racing heart. Minute by minute goes by feeling like it’s hours going by. Fighting to find the light, the rainbow, your happy place.

Such a scary experience. Always needing to remember that when the anxiety hits to close your eyes, concentrate on slowing your breathing, calm your thoughts, find your secret happy place.