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We are married, have promised our lives to each other.

Not a day goes by that we don’t tell each other how much we are in love and how much we mean to each other. When we aren’t together we both feel the separation and long to be together again. Everyday the same.

Yet, even with all of that we still don’t talk about the important stuff, the deep emotional stuff…

Why?

What are we afraid of?

We talk about the everyday mundane stuff but, not the personal emotional stuff.

What are your dreams? What are your fears? What keeps you going everyday? What are your goals? What do you regret in life? What are you proud of? What do you think of? What questions go on in your mind?

Are you honestly happy with the choices you have made? Are you longing for something else? Life has totally changed is it something you will still be happy with 10 years from now?

You turn to your best friend with everything, I have no-one besides you so I don’t talk which fires up my over thinking.

You get somewhat resolutions with your conversations with your friend, I get unanswered questions & thoughts that don’t stop. For an overthinker that is not good – you think & think & think with no resolution, unfortunately the thinking eventually boils over & I feel like I’m going to break, driving me crazy with the past, the hurts, the anxiety, the questions. Driving me crazy with the what ifs, the should haves, no resolution, no answers.

So many things that could be resolved & forgotten just keeps going on & on in our lives.

Is this a marriage destined to fail or will we just keep ignoring the things that need to be spoken about & just hold on to our love for each other & keep living until one of us eventually passes?

Why are we so afraid to talk to each other?

I am your whole world & you are mine so why don’t we talk?