Should I stay or should I go?

I know you love but,you still want your previous life.

You have mentioned it numerous times when we argue and when you are drunk but then when we aren’t arguing and things seem fine, you say you are happy.

What a person says when they are drunk is always the truth.

What a person does when not with the other speaks volumes.

You have lied to me,kept things from me numerous times even though we promised each other we wouldn’t, you’re continuing to do things you know very well upsets me and is very disrespectful to me and our marriage.

I can’t continue to live like this!!

You changed for the better not to loose me because you knew it was going to happen.

Now we are married for just over a year and you are going back to lies,secrets, and doing things you know too well you shouldn’t be doing.

Should I stay or should I go???

That is the question!!!

I have been betrayed so so many times by so many people.  I honestly thought with you it has stopped but,clearly it hasn’t.

Honestly thought I have found someone who really cares about me,about my feelings. Someone who I am and always will be good enough for. Someone who will do anything not to lose me,who will genuinely only need me.

Sadly it doesn’t seem like that is the case.

How much more must one person take??

Maybe it is time to move on,move forward into another life with no-one close to me.

Time to build the walls again and keep everyone out.

Am I so weak?

Am I so stupid that people think they can keep doing this to me?

All this shows me is that I’m not good enough in every sense of the meaning.

How much more must my heart break???

Surely I am worth Everything, Absolutely Everything!!!

All this shows me is that all my love, everything I do and everything I give of myself isn’t good enough.

So the question remains – should I stay or should I go???

I keep thinking of others in every way before myself. So yes,I guess that make me a very stupid,very weak person.

I rather get hurt than let someone else hurt??? Why do I do that?? My feelings,my heart,my life,my beliefs are just as important as anyone else’s!!

Should I stay or should I go???