Damn, I’m hurting so so much!

Why can’t I just speak up?

Especially because I am not the one in the wrong & it is breaking me.

Why am I so afraid of confrontation?

I feel like such a weak person, I mean how do you hurt so much by someone else’s doings and don’t say anything? How weak must I be that I keep quiet and let it eat me up inside?

When I have tried to speak up, it always gets turned around, confusing me so much that it ends up being an arguement about other things and turning it on me.

I am honestly so tired of this!

This is totally breaking me!! The ONE person I thought I could trust with my life, my heart, my soul is the one person who keeps deceiving me and lying.

How do I trust him again? How do I move forward?

We made promises to each other when we got married but, that has gone out the window.

He has double standards, I just can’t anymore.

I love him so so much there are no words to explain.

This is all killing me.