There are times when you feel like everything is being destroyed in your life and you go into a deep dark pit.
Then there are other times that your life feels like you are flying high and everything is perfect.
The secret to making it through the ups and downs, especially the bad times is remembering “THIS TO SHALL PASS”
I have had so many people in my life who gave up on life and either tried to commit suicide or succeeded in committing suicide. Sadly I understand them going that route, it’s a sad lonely dark confusing place, a place where life doesn’t seem worth it anymore and you convince yourself that everyone in your life will be better off without you forgetting that the people in your life care about you and will be destroyed when you are no longer there.
When you are in the lonely, deep dark place remember “THIS TO SHALL PASS” – you will see that if you just hold on, your life will get better, you will see that their lives are better with you in it more than you realize.
The sad reality is that we don’t let people know how much they a needed in our lives. We need to let everyone know how important they are to us. The day you take a minute or two even just to say hi, could possibly be the day that they are in their lonely, deep, dark place it could be the time to help them to hold on and carry on through the day instead of giving up. You could give them the little light in that dark place.
So please remember a hi to let them know that they are being thought of could help someone see that they are important in someone’s life.
Please remember the living, not just the dead. When they are gone it is too late, do what you want / need to and say what you want / need to while they are alive. That is when it is needed, you never know when their time is up – be it through themselves or through their natural time to pass.
Love, care, appreciate everyone in your life. It makes the world of difference in someone’s life.
Such a scary experience. When the anxiety hits your mind goes crazy thinking of the past present and future, thinking about the sad and happy memories. All your thoughts re-running over and over on an endless loop.
Looping until you eventually loose sight of the good. The loop keeps you going towards all the things that went wrong and could go wrong, keeps you going forward into a dark, dark pit.
Your heart races, your fingers start tingling, then your arms – slowly going numb, you tongue feeling thick – you can’t talk, your chest so tight – you can’t breathe, your legs numb – not being able to stand.
Help….. help…. help……
You fight the thoughts, work on slowing your breathing – one breathe at a time, close your eyes and stop your racing heart. Minute by minute goes by feeling like it’s hours going by. Fighting to find the light, the rainbow, your happy place.
Such a scary experience. Always needing to remember that when the anxiety hits to close your eyes, concentrate on slowing your breathing, calm your thoughts, find your secret happy place.
The scary part of life is that no matter who you are with or how long you are with them, you never truly know that person. There is always something that is kept in a closed room in our souls to hide from others.
People are very unpredictable, what they say isn’t always what they mean or do. What is shown to the world isn’t always their true character. Kept secrets, deceit, manipulation is unfortunately their way of life.
Be careful out there, listen to your intuition. Look at the way your pets are with the people you bring home. Animals are excellent judge of characters, they sense things we don’t.
To have people in your life who are truly genuine is extremely rare. If you are the lucky one to have people like that in your life take care of them, appreciate them and let them know. Let them know when they are alive that they are appreciated, send them messages, call anything to keep in contact. When they are no longer here it is to late to go to their funerals or wakes and then show you care.
Do what you can to the good genuine people in your life to let them know they are important to you and that having them in your life makes a difference.
Let the manipulators, deceivers and liers go. You don’t need toxic people in your life to destroy it.
Live your life with love and enjoy it to the fullest. Learn, go on adventures, live – really live with those that matter.
Today I am feeling stuck in my life. Yes, I am married to the most incredible man, I have an awesome son and a Father that is difficult and even though he does not agree with my descisions, I know he is always there for me.
Feeling stuck in life can be challenging and overwhelming. It’s not uncommon to encounter periods where we feel stagnant or unsure of how to move forward. It’s important to remember that these moments are temporary and there are steps you can take to regain a sense of direction and purpose.
One thing that always gives me hope and keeps me going is the quote I live by ” THIS TOO SHALL PASS” – That quote has helped me through some extremely dark times.
Below are a few ideas I have used to help me through my ruts and move forward:
Do lots of Soul searching – Take some time to reflect on what truly matters to you. Identify your goals and values, and consider if you are aligned with them. Sometimes, feeling stuck can be a result of losing sight of what we truly want in life and who we are.
Think of what new experiences you’d like – do a bucket list and stick it on your fridge or bedroom mirror. Sometimes, feeling stuck is a sign that we need to step outside of our comfort zones and explore new things. Do things that challenge you – even it it scares you, meet new people, or travel to different places. Opening yourself up to new experiences can spark inspiration and help you gain a fresh perspective on life.
Find support: Reach out to friends, family, or a mentor for guidance and support. Sharing your feelings and concerns with someone you trust can provide valuable insights and help you see things from a different angle.
Embrace change and adaptability: Life is full of uncertainties, and being open to change is crucial for personal growth. Instead of resisting change, try embracing it and viewing it as an opportunity for growth and new possibilities. You never truly know what you can do until you do it, you will never know if you like something until you try it.
Step away from a bad situation or negativity, anything that will affect your emotions and thinking. Go to a quiet place, close your eyes and just breathe, feel the breeze, listen to all the sounds around you. That quiet time, clearing your mind and taking everything in calms the soul.
The feeling of accomplishment and personal growth is an incredible feeling.
Remember, we all feel stuck, lonely, unappreciated and unseen at times in our lives – the secret is what you will do during the times you feel like that, what steps will you take to move forward and live the way you should.
Nothing is impossible as long as you put your heart and mind into it. Your life and the world is your oyster – it’s all up to you. Are you a victim, a survivor and someone who enjoys life and learns from every experience – good or bad? Only you can choose which and change your life. Any change even the smallest change makes a huge difference in your life, it doesn’t have to be a big thing.
I started my blogs to help me deal with daily life, especially when things are not good. Writing has always been my refuge, my way of escaping the chaos and finding peace within the lines. It’s like therapy for my soul, where I can pour out my emotions, thoughts, and experiences onto the blank canvas of the digital world. Sometimes it will be ramblings from my mind, others poems or a memory I share.
Through my blogs, I hope to connect with others who may be going through similar challenges or seeking inspiration and support. We all face ups and downs in life, and sometimes we just need a safe space to share our struggles, triumphs, and everything in between. We all need to know we aren’t alone, no matter what there is always someone out there who has experienced the same or similar. Knowing that gives you strength and a little peace.
In my writings, I explore various topics that touch my life, my thoughts and my emotions – past, present, love, loss, self-discovery, personal growth, and much more. I want my readers to feel seen, heard, and understood. I want to create a virtual haven where they can find solace, encouragement, and a sense of belonging.
I believe that words have immense power; they can heal, uplift, inspire and give hope. So, I pour my heart into every sentence, hoping to ignite a spark of positivity and empathy in the hearts of those who stumble upon my blog. Whether it’s through sharing my own stories, offering tips and advice, or simply providing a virtual shoulder to lean on, I hope at least some of my blogs will resonate with you.
So, if you find yourself in need of a little pick-me-up, a dose of inspiration, hope, gentle reminder that you’re not alone in this journey, I invite you to embark on this digital sanctuary with me. Together, let’s navigate the highs and lows of life, one blog post at a time.
The sounds of the thunder and lightning , so claiming. It fill my soul.
Renewal, clean, everything seems to brighten up. The birds Come out and sing after the rain. Drinking and bathing in the puddles.
The dogs running in the water and playing in the mud. Running back filthy and happy.
Mother nature at its best.
Absolutely love the rain.
I haven’t blogged in ages, so much has happened these last few months.
I married the most incredible man on our 2 year anniversary (23rd July 2023). We had the most incredible Handfasting ceremony.
It was touch and go in our relationship for so long – he is so so much younger than me and he was more worried about his ego, friends, women, partying, drinking, etc than me and our relationship. Life was more heart ache, deceit, tears and anxiety than anything else but, he has changed so so much that today he isn’t close to the man he was then. He is a man among men, a man he can be extremely proud of.
I learnt the true meaning of the saying “A man won’t change because you love him and want him to, he will change because he loves you and wants to be a better man”.
If I have to tell you everything we went through you will ask “Why’d you stay?” “Why live like that?” “Why marry him?” “You deserve better”, etc. Believe me I thought all that to myself so so many times I can’t even tell you, I debated with myself so much it drove me insane. Trust me I was so so close in ending it all but, I thank the universe, the Gods, the Deities and whoever else I need to thank for helping me to hold on , it was definately the Best thing I could have done.
He has become this incredible man, more of a man than any man I have ever met. The Best friend, lover, confidant, supporter and husband I could ever have imagined! What I saw in him all along he is finally seeing in himself and I am so happy about that. He is finally being true to himself.
Ladies yes, there are times you need to cut your losses when you are with a man that continuously cheats on you, lies, keeps secrets and cares more about himself, his ego and other woman than you but, ladies every person is different so think, really think long and hard. Do loads of soul searching, believe me I had to. Not all the guys out there are meaning to be selfish, a lot of times they need to grow up and realize what is important, what they truly want in life and what type of man they want to be, a lot of times it is the life they had to live before meeting you, and it is all they know.
My husband has admitted he was wrong and made huge, terrible mistakes and the best decision he made was marrying me. He knows that what he did was so so wrong, he now cherishes me, and our relationship and marriage.
He will never know the extent of hurt and anxiety he caused me, to be honest I don’t know if I will ever fully recover from it. I do get anxious, those memories still come up, the horrible dreams still happen but, I know it is something I need to work through and it is in the past and looking at him today, thinking about the man he is today and the incredible husband he is, those feelings, memories and thoughts will eventually be long lost memories.
I do wish there was no such thing as Facebook and social media because it makes the deceit and cheating so much easier, it gives people an excuse “oh it was on face book I never asked for it”. Really? So why like the pictures and videos? Why not block the person posting those pictures and videos? Why request and accept friend requests from the opposite sex? Social media is there to destroy relationships, families and otherwise happy couples. Yes, social media has it ups and downs. It helps businesses with advertising but, unfortunately not everyone only uses it for that. The sexual pictures, the half naked pictures, the my fan pages, etc – all destroy your self worth, All make you question yourself, your body. Makes you feel like you are not enough and say to yourself ” If only I looked like that, if only I did that”, etc. The friend requests with the opposite sex opens up doors that shouldn’t be opened especially when you are in a committed relationship and especially when you are married. Yes you can look but, not like that – Not by liking the photos and videos, not by adding them as friends. Not by doing it in secret and definately not by chatting with them and exchanging numbers.
He was always the type of guy that never wanted marriage, never wanted to commit, it was women, women, women, partying, drinking, friends, lies, deceit, secrets all the time. There’s a lot I know that he doesn’t know I know but, I chose then and still choose to not say anything as it is in the past and not worth bringing up and having it festering and destroying this amazing marriage we now have. Here he is now, 2 years later and proudly telling everyone about his wife. Proudly announcing he is married to me. Giving me so so much love and attention I sometimes think I am dreaming. There is no doubt in my mind that we are meant to be together for the rest of our lives, there is no doubt in my mind that I am his all.
The post he did on face book the other day, threw me ( See below). It really showed me so much he wasn’t saying. Yes, he is much much younger than me but, he is better than any man I’ve ever had in my life. The total love I feel from him everyday is mind blowing.
So ladies hold on if it feels right deep in your soul. Your soul, your intuition Always knows best, Listen to it! Always listen to it! I did and am so, so extremely blessed. Don’t listen to anyone, no-one knows what is meant for you , no-one knows what your soul needs. Every situation is different, every person is different and your soul knows that, your intuition and your soul will always steer you in the right direction. So so many times I was ready to end it but, something always stopped me and I am so so grateful that it did because I am now extremely happily married to the most incredible man. He loves me, support me and cares for me in so many ways.
I have been stuck in a wheelchair for 2 months now due to injuries, he carried me where I needed to go before I got the wheelchair. He gets up in the middle of the night or early hours of the morning to help me to the bathroom. I got ill and vomited everywhere because I could not get to the bathroom quick enough, he stood there and helped me while I was vomiting and cleaned it up, he’s made our meals, cleaned the house, done washing, taken care of all our pets and still worked himself. He’s never complained once. He has been by my side no matter what. I have never met a man more caring and more supportive than him. In the few months of marriage he has shown me that he is here no matter what and that he truly loves me until the end.
So ladies, please please listen to your soul, your intuition. Do the soul searching and don’t listen to people who think they know what you need, I know they are just trying to help but, your true, true answer is YOUR SOUL, YOUR INTUITION. ALWAYS, always listen to it. I am so extremely glad I did!
I am so excited for what our future has in store for us, I know it is something incredible and more than I could ever have imaged.
THE INTENSE PAIN IN YOUR HEART THAT ONLY A CHILD CAN CAUSE IT’S PARENT. A PAIN SO INTENSE SO DEEP THAT IT FEELS LIKE YOU ARE DYING.
THE LIES, NO LOYALTY, SHELFISHNESS – DECIET – THAT IS TOO HURTFUL TO BARE, TO COMPREHEND.
HOW DOES A CHILD CAUSE SO MUCH PAIN AND BE SO SELF CENTERED? IT’S ALL ME, ME, ME, NO MATTER THE CONSEQUENCE, NO MATTER WHO IS HURT IN THE PROCESS.
RIPPING YOUR HEART OUT, CRUSHING IT, KILLING YOUR SOUL, YOUR WILL TO LIVE. NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO FOR THEM IT HONESTLY MAKES NO DIFFERENCE. THE MORE YOU DO, THE MORE THEY WANT.
HAVE I BEEN A BAD MOTHER? AM I STILL A BAD MOTHER? AM I SUCH A TERRIBLE PERSON TO DESERVE THIS FROM THE ONE PERSON I GAVE MY LIFE FOR. THE ONE PERSON I THOUGHT WOULD STAND BY ME NO MATTER WHAT, AS I HAVE DONE FOR HIM OVER AN OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
INSTEAD OF HIM APPRECIATING, LOVING AND BEING GRATEFUL YOU GET HURT AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN……
WHY DID I PUT MY LIFE ON HOLD FOR HIM? WHY DID I DO ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING FOR HIM? WHY MAKE HIM A PRIORITY ALL HIS LIFE, ALL MY LIFE, WHEN IT MADE NO DIFFERENCE?
YOU STAND BY THEM NO MATTER WHAT, SUPPORT THEM WHETHER YOU AGREE OF NOT. NO MATTER WHAT THEY WANT TO DO OR BECOME YOU ARE THERE ALL THE WAY. YET, YOU ASK FOR A LITTLE SUPPORT, JUST A TINY LITTLE BUT, YOU MIGHT AS WELL ASK A STRANGER – YOU GET MORE FROM A STRANGER THAN YOUR OWN CHILD.
YOUR HEART IS CRUSHED, DYING, HURTING, INTENSLEY HURTING YET, THEY GO ON WITH THEIR LIVES AS IF NOTHING HAPPENED AND YOU MUST JUST KEEP BEING THERE WHEN THEY WANT FOR WHATEVER THEY WANT. IS THIS HEARTACHE, LIES, DISLOYALTY WORTH IT? WHEN DO YOU DECIDE ENOUGH IS ENOUGH AND GO YOUR SEPERATE WAY??
CAN’T TAKE THIS PAIN! CAN’T TAKE THE LIES AND DECIET ANYMORE!!! THIS PAIN IS TOO MUCH…….
My life has had its ups and downs, I’ve been so close to giving in to the darkness.
I am so so extremely grateful for Brandon the love of my life who has pulled me through my darkest days. Who has seen me for me and loves me through it all. Our relationship has gone through more than most in a short time period but we have grown stronger and stronger.
Then my son Kieran who fought his battle with drugs,went to rehab for a year and came out strong,positive and so successful in his life. He sees life so differently and now has a will to live. He is excelling and doing so incredibly well,I am so so very proud of him.
My dearest Dad who lost the love of his life 2 years ago (my loving Mom). Through all his heartache and struggles to go on,he still supported my son and I. He has always been there for me even though he doesn’t agree with a lot of my choices. When it counts I know he will always be there for me.
My best friend Shirley. She has been more like a sister to me and has helped me and my son through so so much. I’m eternally grateful to her. She is the most incredible friend. She gave me a home. She helped with the costs for the rehab for my son without question and without asking for a cent back. She has helped me through so many tough times. She has always been there for us and I know she always will be. She is one of the most incredible people I have ever met.
For all those people I am so truly grateful for. They have helped me see that life is worth living even though some trials are extremely hard to bare.
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