In her deep dark pit
Peace evading her
Waterfall of tears
Achig heart
Shattered dreams
Racing mind
Snakes in her stomach
How
Where
Why
Soul crushing
Perfecting her masqurade
Masks fooling everyone
In her deep dark pit
Silence
Smothering darkness
Tag: Soul
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Dreams shattered
Dark clouds
Heartache clinging
Memories is all that’s left
Her dreams gone,her joy an ancient memory.
Surviving is all she can do
No more dreaming,no more hope
All gone into the abyss
Wearing a mask to avoid “What’s wrong?” Not wanting to say anything.
No-one really cares
No-one sees the heartache,pain, lost hope and dreams in her eyes.
Wearing her mask well
Alone,feeling like she’s dying
Tears streaming down her face everytime she’s alone
The incredible heartache consuming her
Dreams shattered
Dark clouds
Heartache clinging
Her dreams gone,her joy an ancient memory.
Until she is no more
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Shining bright smiling sun
Small raindrops dancing down to the ground
Sweet grass,earth and flowers wafting through the air filing her senses with peace
Huge gleeming moon shining her way
Silver dancing stars thoughout the sky
Day and night turning to the universe, to mother earth to keep her sane
Fogetting all her pains, all her worries, all her heartache
Mother earth filling her with miracles and wonder overtaking all the darkness
The chaos, broken dreams and heartache hiding in a deep deep pit just for now just for a bit
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Drip
Drip
Drip
Slowly, musically
Drip
Drip
Drip
The crimson red
Drip
Drip
Drip
Time ticking
Tick
Tick
Tick
Sands of time falling
falling
falling
Scenes flashing through her mind
Her story never to be told
Once young & free
Now broken
Silver glistening in the sun
Crimson so dark
Thoughts fading
Heart beating
Boom
Boom
Boom
Her life story echoing into the abyss
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When a question is asked again & again by, now he should know it’s because she already knows the answers & is giving him chance to be honest but,he just keeps on with his lies & deceit.
What happened to the promises:
Always be open & honest
No lies or secrets
Never do anything behind each others backs
No opposite sex
His double standards are killing the relationship.
She can’t talk to the opposite sex but,he chats & spends time with them & if anything is said then it is turned around & she is made to feel guilty,like it’s her.
If people just touch her on the shoulder he freaks out but,he allows the women to even run their hands down his back with the excuse that’s the way she is – NO not good enough!! He should put a stop to it but,no she must just keep quiet and accept.
He continues with the very graphic Facebook pages even knowing how it makes her feel.
He does things behind her back that he knows very well will hurt her but,when asked lies about it. Such disrespect
He is hurting her so so deeply with his disrespect,deceit & double standards.
He expects her to trust him but,yet he continues to deceive & lie.
When she trys to talk to him it’s immediate defensiveness & turning it around onto her. Shifting the whole thing.
She is tired,soul tired.
Now she just keeps quiet, shes tired of not being heard,not being respected.
Tired of not being able to say how she feels.
She is slowly dying inside,the hurt unbearable!!
She gave her heart,soul and life to him but,yet he continues to deceive,continues to disrespect & hurt her!!
How is she meant to carry on like this?
How can she trust him with anything?
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Hollow feeling in the pit of her stomach
Heart racing a million beats a second
Mind Chaotic
Too tired to breathe
Melancholy setting in
Is this a sign of what’s to come?
Mind tired
Heart tired
Soul tired
Into the forest she goes to find her soul
Birds singing
Tress swaying
The music of the forest enveloping her
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Like a volcano intense emotions filling her soul,burning every ounce of peace and hapiness
Like a waterfall tears streaming down her cheeks
Like a tornado thoughts causing chaos and destruction
Like a clown smiling and laughing but,intense heartache inside for no-one to see
Like a deep dark well filled with wishes and dreams her soul holds on
Like a bird in flight,so free and miraculous,holding on to the time all thoughts,betrayal,heartache and tears will disappear to join the freedom and peace of a bird in flight.
My Life,My Thoughts 