So incredible to be a child. Seeing the world through pure, innocent eyes. Loving, enjoying and learning all the time
All the fairytales keeping your imagination alive, causing you to live a life full of imagery and surprises. So exciting!! Everything possible! A world of wonder and fantasy.
Happiness a continous emotion. Not knowing heartbreak, hatred and fear. Full of pure love and truth.
If only we could all keep that as we grow up. Sadly loosing all of life’s wonders and innocent joy and love. Sadly knowing fairytales are just that – tales.
The sadness, deceit, betrayal, lies and immense heartache that replaces the wonder and innocence. So so sad!!
Sadly realizing that people are deceitful, disloyal, disrespectful. Only living for themselves and not caring if their actions hurt and do harm to others.
If only we could be like Peter Pan and the lost boys- young and adventurous forever. Full of love and care for each other. Standing by each other no matter what. Loyalty, love and honesty the way.
Why the hell do people continously play games? Why are people disloyal?
I’m so so tired of the lies, the deceit the betrayal!!
I seriously wish I could disappear and go where no-one knows me. Go far, far away.
So tired of all the krap!!! So tired of everything. So tired of people!!! Why do people play stupid fucking games with others emotions, others minds and others lives?
What is the fucking point of always being the person who worries about others. Will rather hurt themself than have others hurt? Why be a good, caring, loving and soft hearted person when all that gets you is being taken advantage of, being lied to and made a fool of???
WHAT THE FUCK!!!! This is not the way to live!!!!!!
Her heart breaking a little everyday. Tears streaming down her cheeks like rain drops on a stormy day. Her stomach feeling like a deep deep pit.
Sad So so sad…
She tries to move forward, tries to carry on as if everything is bright and beautiful. Tries to ignore it because after all he is with her. He loves her.
Sad so so sad….
She knows he isn’t just hers. She knows he still needs the opposite sex. She knows he still exchanges numbers and messages, does sexting and all sorts with them. All done in private. He tells her everyday that she is the only one for him that he is hers and only her but, Sadly she knows that’s not the case.
Yes he loves her, yes he is with her but sadly she is not the only one. She loves him and tries to live with that knowledge knowing he will never stop.
Sad so so sad…. her heart breaking little by little everyday. Tears streaming down her cheeks like raindrops during a storm.
She knows that one day her heart will break completely and she will need to leave even though she knows he’s the love of her life and to leave him would be to kill herself emotionally. To destroy her world. Knowing she doesn’t want to live without him but, for her own sanity and self-respect she will need to leave no matter how much she loves him.
Sad so so sad…. her heart breaking little by little everyday. Tears streaming down her cheeks like raindrops during a storm.
Wishing with all her heart and soul that he trully meant the words he says. Wishing that he would realise the heartache he is causing. Wishing he would realise that what he’s doing is so so wrong. Wishing he would stop and trully only have eyes for her and only have the need for her attention and affection.
Never saying no to him sexually, giving him free reign to her body and soul. Never denying him anything. So why does he still do all that in private? Why still need others when he has everything he could ever need with her. She tries to make love to him he stops her – causing a little more heartache, why stop her? Making her want to make herself small, curl into a small ball.
He acts like he’s single on social media, has pages that look like a single man’s pages. All the single women. All the likes, hearts, etc on their photos. Photos that he shouldn’t even be taking note of, messaging these women, exchanging numbers, photos, calls, etc. Causing such disrespect to her, such disrespect to their relationship. Devalueing their relationship, their love, their life together.
Sad so so sad… Her heart breaking little by little everyday. Her tears streaming down her cheeks like raindrops….
She knows things without having to be told. She feels it through energy, her intuition and her dreams. She always knows. She just always wants proof, wants confirmation and sadly everytime she has looked for proof it has broken her heart. Everything she knows without being told has always always proven to be right. Her intuition is Always, Always right.
Sad so so sad…. her heart breaking little by little everyday. Tears streaming down her cheeks like raindrops during a storm.
Will he ever see…… Will he ever stop. The hurt, the harm he is doing?
Sad so so sad…… her heart breaking little by little everyday. Her tears steaming down her cheeks like raindrops during a storm.
He’s in a committed relationship, he loves her dearly. Tells her she is his everything, his life.
Even though he loves her and is happy with her he still does sexting with other women. Causing her to feel disrespected, questioning her worth.
Surely if she is good enough for him like he says, surely if he loves her and is happy with her he would not need to even chat to other women never mind the sexting.
Why be in a commited relationship when he still needs to do that? Be single then he can have as many women as he’d like, do whatever he wants with them. It kills her knowing he does that, realizing with a very sore heart that he will never stop. Making her feel very betrayed and very disrespected. She loves him more than she thought possible, can’t leave him but is sad and hurts everyday knowing he will never stop doing it, knowing he does it everyday when he’s alone.
Why does he need other women when he has her? When he says she is everything he could ever want. When he says she is beautiful and sexy and loves her and her body? If that is the truth then Why??? It makes absolutely no sense!!! She does anything he wants sexually, never denies him. So why????
What makes a man or women do that when they are in a loving, commited relationship??? Why??
Do they not see how disrespectful and deceitful it is? How do they not see that that is being unfaithful?? How much it hurts!! There should be absolutely no chatting, no exchange of numbers, most definitely no sexting whatsoever with the oposite sex – no matter what the reason!! No reason at all is good enough to do that – NOTHING!!!
Slowly slowly her heart breaks everyday. She cries everyday when no-one can see. Her heart aching, questioning her worth, questioning everything. Even with all that she can’t stop loving him., he is her world, her everything, her life……
A love like that he will NEVER find! A more committed, devoted person he will never meet. So why????
He says he always comes home to her, he is with her, she is the only one he wants, he chooses her and will always choose her – not seeming to understand that him doing that breaks her heart, makes her feel disrespected, cheated on, makes her question her worth. Hurting everyday. Not realizing that what he does is extremely disrespectful, extremely deceiving and actually cheating. Such betrayal!!! It makes her so sad.
Sadly this is happening in so many relationships. Either partner cheating and being deceitful and disrespectful like that, not thinking there is anything wrong with it because after all they love their partner and are with their partners – thinking that makes it better. No! It doesn’t! Deceit is deceit, disrespecting your partner, being unfaithful – no matter how it is done is so so wrong! Sadly in the end that is what kills the relationship not falling out of love, no – feeling disrespected, feeling hurt, being betrayed over and over again – that is what kills that relationship.
Laughter all around but, no laughter inside of you….
Things said echoing over and over in your mind.
Everything like a movie running slowly over and over. Moments good and bad, happy and sad running and running over and over, sloooowly, echoing…..
This disconnection, feeling like you aren’t in reality. Feeling like your life is a dream and your body is light, floating all around, watching from a distance. Everything an echo…
Running, running away far far away into the forest peaceful and calm. The mountain keeping me safe giving its beauty. The lake running full of life showing me its life source. Such peace, such calm.
Talking to people and listening to their heartaches and fears in their relationships you realise you aren’t alone and how disrespectful, selfish and inconsiderate people are.
To sadly come to the realisation that you will Never be the only one for your partner, you will never be enough for your partner to just be happy with you, to stop playing games and carrying on with the opposite sex. You will never be enough for your partner that your partner is always looking for something, somone else. Why? Is it so exciting to be unfaithful, to lie about your relationship status to people and play sexual and emotional games? Killing the self respect your partner has in themselves, killing any confidence they had.
Not leaving your partner because you love them so damn much, just the thought of loosing them and living without them makes you feel like you are dying inside. Knowing that it is wrong to stay in the relationship and knowing that they will never stop. Keeping you hidden from the world. Not ever meeting their so called friends of the opposite sex. Keeping the relationship a secret and only the people who see you often know because that can’t be kept secret for long. Not going out together only doing things that no-one sees you together doing. If you are in public together on the very few occasion not showing any affection at all.
Hurting because you know if your partner could they would keep it secret from absolutely everyone and Never let anyone know. You and the relationship the secret – while they go out meet others, exchange numbers, have fun on social media with the opposite sex, sexting, etc. While you are 100% faithful and giving your all.
They expect you to be faithful and let everyone know that you are in a relationship but, they don’t. You give up all your friends of the opposite sex, don’t befriend anyone from the opposite sex. Definitely don’t do sex chats or exchange numbers, etc.
How can they expect you to be loyal and faithful when they aren’t??
How can they say they truly love you if they continously disrespect you and the relationship? If they continously take chances when they know it will always come out and take the chance of loosing you? You and your relationship can’t be that Important to them. They can’t love you as much they say they do. How can they when they always need others of the opposite sex besides you, no matter what you do or how much you love them.
No matter what it will Never only be you. So so heart breaking, so demeaning. No respect for you and your relationship. How do you continue living and loving as if everything is fine when you are hurting so much inside but, still love your partner more than life and don’t want a life without then??
She’s 47, he’s 21. They fell in love through turmoil. Their love a love stronger than any other. Better than any fairytale. A love that defies all odds.
It started strangely, unexpectedly, without warning. Drawn together with an incredibly strong link. An unbreakable bond.
A love that’s been through troubles and turmoil but, gets stronger and stronger. A love so intense, so strong, so unexplainable so real so absolute!
She’s his everything, his love, his calm and his storm. She holds him up when he’s tired, gives him all of her. He’s her sunshine in dark times and her rainbow in the storms. He holds her up when she is weak, understands her like no other. He is patient and understanding with her. They are each other’s life, each other’s Forever and Always.
They complete each other. Their souls intertwined for all eternity – a supernova – indescribable, eternal, an incredible breath taking union.
Together they stand no matter what. Together they fight. Together they laugh and cry. Together they make a home, a family. A story better than any love story, better than any fairytale.
You see I am 47 and in a relationship for just over a year with a 21 year old. We love each other dearly but, seem to both be so emotionally invested in each other that we have these blow up fights over unnecessary things.
Why do you hurt the people you love? Why say hurtful things when you are angry that hurt deeply and can’t be forgotten? Unfortunately we both sit with this thing of we aren’t good enough for the other. I feel like all I do is say and do the wrong things and he in turn feels the same way. It’s really ridiculous!!
I’m an over Thinker unfortunately and that causes so much problems – how do I stop that? I know that everything happens when and if it should. I truly believe that, but my mind pushes me to levels that are unnecessary.
Him being young,extremely good looking with a body to die for who can have any women he wants, makes me feel insecure. How does a 47 year old woman whose body isn’t great anymore compete with the young girls with amazing bodies etc? Maybe compete is the wrong word I don’t know. I know that sounds stupid and he has told me many times it’s me he wants.
How do I stop this over thinking krap? How do I trust our hearts and relationship without thinking up stupid scenarios of him meeting someone else,etc? I know all relationships have issues similar to this but,this over thinking krap is tooo much for me and him. I do believe what is meant to happen will happen and no matter what you do whatever is meant to happen will happen at the time it’s meant to, our relationship is proof of that.
I always said I would never have a relationship with someone more than a few years younger than me but, the chemistry and instant bond we have had from the beginning is something I’ve never experienced before. Our relationship just happened, randomly happened and is the best thing that could have happened to me. We got together in weird circumstances, which should actally make me feel incredible but,sadly it doesn’t because of my stupid over thinking. I feel extremely blessed and extremely lucky to have him in my life,I really do. So why am I doing this???
On the one hand I’m anxious and over thinking the scenarios of him meeting someone else where his mind and emotions are with them instead of me and our relationship, and I end up losing him and on the other hand I believe our love can pull us through anything. We have been through so much and both of us could have left but,we keep choosing each other and staying together to work through everything. I believe in him and in our love and relationship but my Damn mind!!!!
The thing is the love I feel for him is soul consuming. I know for a fact he is my true love!!! He is my all!! He makes me feel incredible,beautiful, sexy and loved. He makes me see myself differently. He is more of a man than any man I have ever met!! He treats me with the kind of love and support I’ve never experienced before. He has supported me in my darkest days and stood by me when no-one else did. The scary thing is that he has the power to totally destroy me because he has much of me. He has all my heart and soul!
Please someone help me to stop over thinking,I’m destroying the most precious, incredible thing in my life because of it.
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