SUCH A SAD SAD EXISTENCE WHEN YOU REALISE THAT YOUR FAMILY DOESN’T REALLY CARE ABOUT YOU. BLOOD IS MOST DEFINITELY NOT THICKER THAN WATER!!!

DEEPLY HEART BREAKING WHEN THE ONE PERSON WHO DID IS THE FIRST ONE TO PASS AWAY. THE ONE PERSON WHO YOU COULD TALK TO, WHO YOU KNEW WAS ALWAYS THERE NO MATTER WHAT.

YOU CARRY ON WITH LIFE, FIND LOVE, GET MARRIED BUT, THE LONELINESS AND HEARTBREAK CONTINUES.

IT’S A LONELINESS AND HEART BREAK THAT FILLS YOUR SOUL. THAT TAKES OVER YOUR EVERY THOUGHT, EVERY MOMENT, NO MATTER WHAT YOU ARE DOING OR HOW INCREDIBLE YOUR LIFE IS MOVING FORWARD THERE IS NEVER TRUE PEACE.

SUCH A SAD SAD EXISTENCE!!

THERE IS FAMILY YET THERE MAY AS WELL NOT BE. YOU DO NOT EXIST TO THEM. YOU ARE NOT EVEN A THOUGHT TO THEM.

ALL THEY CAN DO IS JUDGE, CRITICIZE, IGNORE YOU. THEY CAN’T GRANT YOU HAPPINESS, WHAT THEY THINK AND HOW THEY FEEL IS ALWAYS, ALWAYS MORE IMPORTANT THAN YOU AND YOUR HAPPINESS.

YOU TRY TO KEEP IN TOUCH, TRY TO MAKE CONVERSATION, TRY TO KEEP THE FAMILY TOGETHER BUT, ALL THAT YOU GET IS FEELING LIKE YOU ARE SPEAKING TO YOURSELF, TO YOUR IMAGINATION.

IMPORTANT EVENTS LIKE BIRTHDAYS AND CHRISTMASES SAD, SO SO SAD, JUST MAKES YOU FEEL MORE EXCLUDED MORE ALONE.

SUCH A SAD SAD EXISTENCE!!

ALL YOUR LIFE TRYING TO PLEASE THE FAMILY, NO MATTER WHAT YOU WANTED TO DO YOU DIDN’T, BECAUSE IT WOULD NOT BE ACCEPTABLE TO THE SO CALLED FAMILY. YOU ALWASY, ALWAYS, ALWASY PUT THE FAMILY FIRST!! NOW, AFTER LIVING MOST OF YOUR LIFE TO PLEASE THEM, YOU DECIDE TO LIVE YOUR LIFE THE WAY YOU WANT, THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY AND THE WAY YOU NEED BUT, YET YOU ARE NEVER TRULY HAPPY, YOUR HEART BREAKS EVERYDAY, THE TEARS STREAM DOWN YOUR FACE DAILY BECAUSE OF THE SO CALLED FAMILY.

SUCH A SAD SAD EXISTENCE.

THEY DESTROY YOUR HAPPINESS NO MATTER WHAT, IT’S ABOUT THEM AND NEVER YOU. WHY CAN THEY BE HAPPY AND CHOOSE HOW THEY LIVE, WHO THEY WANT IN THEIR LIVES, WHAT THEY DO IN THEIR LIVES BUT, YOU CAN’T? WHY IS THEIR HAPPINESS MORE IMPORTANT??

WE ARE ALL DIFFERENT, WE ALL SEE LIFE AND THINGS DIFFERENTLY WHAT MATTERS IS THAT EACH ONE OF US, EACH HUMAN ON THE PLANET DESERVES HAPPINES NO MATTER HOW AND WHERE THAT HAPPINESS COMES FROM WETHER OTHERS AGREE OR NOT. HAPPINES AND LOVE IS WHAT OUR LIVES SHOULD BE FILLED WITH SO WHY CAN OTHERS NOT JUST BE HAPPY FOR YOU EVEN WHEN THEY DON’T AGREE???